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From Womb to Underworld and Back Again: Click Here for Spanish version Copyright © Jeannine Parvati Baker
Ever since Ive been watching, childbirth has changed
from being primarily an active expression of women to a medical
event through which she is delivered. When I had my first
baby, the rate of surgically assisted [abdominal] birth was
under 10%. In the late nineties, cesarean section is performed
in 20 40% of births, depending on whether the hospital
is involved in teaching or not. If its a teaching hospital,
the rate is higher. What are we teaching? My early responses to watching childbirth be taken out of the lap of the family and given into the hands of the experts, were rage, righteous indignation, and an anger which motivated me to do something about the cesarean epidemic. Tempered with these potent feelings was the realization that everything on this Earth serves soul-making everything, including cesarean surgery. In my desire to change the way things were going, I was actually holding the problem in place. No one, especially a culture, likes to be changed from the outside. I dont like it when people try to change me - and doctors dont like it when I try to change their obstetrics. Indeed, I think the only person who likes to be changed is a baby with wet nappies. No, before I attempt to change anyone, an important question
must be explored. This question is - how does it serve that
there is an epidemic of cesarean deliveries? Inanna is called to descend from the dayworld into the Underworld.
She must make offerings at each gate in her descent below
the surface. At the first gates she removes her outer vestments
- robes, jewelry, crown, veils, breastplate. As she descends
- her dress, her undergarments, all her clothes are taken
and next she must be stripped even further, in order to go
deeper. Off comes her skin, her muscle, her organs so that
her bones are all that is left to be hung on a hook in the
lowest regions of hell. Here Inanna, Queen of Heaven, is reduced
to hanging bones in the bottom of hell. This story holds a
central mystery - for it is when the Queen of Death is giving
birth herself in the Underworld, that Inanna is allowed to
begin the ascent. She puts back on her organs, her muscles
and her skin. Next she clothes her new body in undergarments
and dress, then her breastplate, veils, crown, jewelry and
robes. When she emerges from the Underworld, it is with a
spiritually renewed body and she is numinous for having journeyed
below. Now she is fully the Queen of Heaven for having known,
and transcended, hell. A mother who is persuaded or even coerced into a cesarean
section becomes a sacrificial offering like Inanna and must
go down below the egoic level of consciousness, where the
agenda of the dayword gives way to soul. She is a victim in
the original sense of the word - sacrificing herself for the
benefit of her baby. At least, thats the story many
cesarean mothers tell whether it is true or not - that a c/section
saved their babies lives. A mother will offer her body,
her mind, her soul to the priest/doctor on the altar of obstetrics
if it might help her baby. Through anesthesia, she is inducted
into an altered state of consciousness - her soul voyaging
below the surface of awareness. She is dismembered, stripped
away of her outer vestment; even her skin, muscle and organs
are manipulated in the act of cesarean delivery. When she
emerges again, she can claim a new spiritual body like Inanna
- once, that is, she has integrated the birth, and understood
how it served from the souls point of view that her
baby was cesarean born. When mothers who ask the question, "How does cesarean
section serve?" run out of answers, then we have a real
chance at healing the epidemic. Otherwise, we are trying to
change a system from the outside. My observance is that once
mothers have revisioned themselves from being victims into
be shaman, healers, there are less cesareans in the community.
If she continues to feel harmed, guilty and shamed for her
birth experience, she is less effective in changing our cultures
way of birth. When a mother who has been sectioned feels that
her surgery was in initiation and can explore the deeper context
of healing more fully for having that experience, a tremendous
amount of psychic energy is released. It does take an immense
amount of energy to repress or deny trauma - once the experience
in integrated (felt, expressed and released), all that energy
used for defensive posturing is freed up for creative action.
A mother who feels blessed, though she wouldnt consciously
sign up for the "blessing" of cesarean nor repeat
the "blessing", is more effective at educating others,
than a mother who feels guilty and hurt. When Inanna arises,
she is radiant for her journey into darkness. I share this myth of Inannas descent as she is a rare
archetype for mothers - one who confronted Death in Birth
and arose unscathed again. Mothers who give spontaneous birth
know that feeling of wrestling Death for the soul of our unborn
- mothers who are delivered cesarean know something of the
souls shadow which once made conscious, will help to
midwife the light for all mothers giving birth. When a woman
gives conscious birth, she often declares, "Now I know
I can do anything!" In her moment of glory, a woman claims
her own birthright member of the new species evolving - Homo
Divinitus- the human who is source of ones own experience.
When the female half of humanity remembers this, I can only
imagine what the world would look like. If mothers werent
victimized in our essential expression of creativity, and
even when a cesarean was indicated the mother experienced
the surgery as soul-making, the face of this would come into
balance. No victims, no oppressors. No oppressors, no victims.
In Inannas story it is clear that she chose to go into
the Underworld, the way a mother surrenders to her destiny
in birth - no victimizing the Goddess in this millennium. That is how I see all mothers - many different faces of the
Goddess. Inannas face has increasingly greeted me at
birthings this last generation. The face is determined, strong
and the tracks of suffering and jubilation show as the etching
of life around her eyes, around her mouth. She speaks with
a pulsing passion, like lava or a molten message beneath the
meaning and the sound of her voice warms me. Her hair is like
a web which is spinning; and she catches ideas here and there
to nurture the future. Having been in the dark, she attuned
to tones, and shades, the hues of hints beyond. The face on
Inanna invites me to look further, reach deeper. She reflects
the grandest gateways and how to pass through each of them
in order. Facing Inanna, I envision mothers everywhere, almost
all of the time, able to give natural birth, as cesarean section
no longer serves the Earth. Thats what going to hell
and back can do for us- clear the road for future generations
so birth can illuminate many, many more ancient and new faces
of the Goddess. Dedicated to Janice Healer Extraordinaire * This article retyped by Jill McDanal |
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When I first read this article by Jeanine Parvati more than a year ago, I couldn´t take it. It hurt me so much to read it!. I couldn´t understand why I felt so much pain with these words, so I tried to stay away from it, I had printed it out and I hid those pages. I can now see I was only at the very beginning of my healing from my three cesareans.Now I went back to it and I reread it. It´s awesome. I read it and I understood it for the first time and I have been reading it over and over and I have thought of all of you, all the wise women, the ones who cry and suffer so much because of the enormous sacrifice we had to make. Í thank Jeannine for writing it. I am now working on translating it to spanish. Dr. Ibone Olza |
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